As another Lame Cherry exclusive in matter anti matter.
My existence sucks most days. I have all the misery you have in your lives, but mine is magnified by several hundred fold in people, animals and plants which depend on me.
So when things pile up, I do want to die, but as a Protestant Christian, I can not commit suicide as that is unrepentant sin. I have been through this all of my life in searching, as I'm not in lust with this life and think it is wonderful. My focus is have God work through me, so God receives what He Wills, then as Isaiah 66 promises I won't remember things now in all the pain. I hope for Christ's return to be caught up to Him or a blessed end without suffering to have Jesus take me Home.
There are several times a year in poverty issues which satan gets at me and I will not take anymore as I can not. This was such a time as at the end of March. HAAPR hell weather was non stop, feed for the animals was running out and months had been wasted in nothing could be done. There were other knife stabs from satan which just broke me again.
So I pondered the words in Job which I have before and I never could figure out what exactly they meant in Job's wife telling him to curse God and die. So I started searching in root words to gain the understanding of this, if this was a tool for me to die.
satan was listening as the rat demons were, as what should open up in Bible study but Job and speaking about going to the grave. Typical accent in pushing for a Christian to murder themselves as satan can not do this in my instance.
I'm always fascinated in what the Bible really is saying in the Hebrew words. To set this up, Job is covered in sores and as he is a broken man, he scrapes himself with a broken piece of pottery. I suspect it is the sores itch and he has draining puss dried on him. He sits in ashes, I suppose to keep the flies and maggots off him.
Then Job's wife said, "Do you still retain your integrity?"
The key words in this are RETAIN, and INTEGRITY, because this is where the complexity of this short exchange begins. The word retain means to be obstinate, to grab hold of, to seize, to conquer. Job was a righteous man, really righteous as God noted it and satan loathed him with venom over it. The wife apparently was now showing her venom as everything was gone, which had come into being they thought because Job was good. Now she spits at him about an elevated innocent which Job still held to, as later his 3 friends appear and prosecute him stating he must have done something wrong to have all this evil to be heaped upon him.
So Job is holding onto his being innocent. Then the word INTEGRITY appears and that is having done not any wrong. The word though is much deeper as it is linked as you will read below in Hebrew to the word TUMMAH, which is Spiritual. That is what his wife just condemned her husband with. Job is holding onto his being righteous in this world, and his wife tells him, that the sin is within Job. Job is impure behind the righteousness the world sees.
Book of Job
Chapter3
…8And Job took a piece of broken pottery to scrape himself as he sat among the ashes. 9Then Job’s wife said to him, “Do you still retain your integrity? Curse God and die!” 10“You speak as a foolish woman speaks,” he told her. “Should we accept from God only good and not adversity?” In all this, Job did not sin in what he said
The term "tummah" refers to a state of ritual impurity or uncleanness in the Hebrew Bible. It is often associated with physical conditions, actions, or objects that render a person or thing ceremonially unclean according to the Mosaic Law. This state of impurity required specific purification rituals to restore cleanliness and allow participation in religious activities.
After this condemnation from Job's wife, comes the sentence which Job is supposed to invoke. This is the part which puzzled me in the "curse God and die", but this is not just about cursing and dying.
In fact the Hebrew renders this as TO BLESS, because in their ideas they did not want to put the word curse next to God, and use bless, which people are supposed to understand the euphemism
What is the opposite of CURSE? It is what is written, to BLESS. So what is blessing, but to empower, to give ACCEPTANCE TO GOD'S AUTHORITY to make things good for us. That is what this curse is about, the wife is telling Job to revoke God's blessing of life to him, which has a result of death. This is more than death though.
Meet you on the other side.
BARAK - to kneel, to bless God.
The Hebrew verb "arar" primarily means "to curse" or "to bind with a curse." It conveys the idea of invoking divine harm or misfortune upon someone or something. In the biblical context, it often reflects a solemn pronouncement of judgment or a declaration of being set apart for destruction.
brings a curse (6), curse (8), curse is cursed (1), cursed (40), cursed be those who curse (1), cursed is everyone who curses (1), cursed woman (1), utterly curse (1).
As you can see in the definitions, the reality of "curse those who curse me" is in operation in this understanding in what people do is what will come back upon them. So it appears that what Job's wife is stating is, condemn God to death, which is impossible, but that is something sown against God, so death will follow from God. The death though is of importance as the world is WAMUT. It is not just to die of old age. It is an active verb meaning to "kill". What is being stated here in context is suicide to kill oneself. That is going to be a sentence to hell. So this advice if followed will only reward satan who wants Job dead, but if Job rejects God, then Job ends up in hell burning forever in the same eternal death which satan will be judged with.
Die -WAMUT - to kill
So you can see where I started out personally in this about wanting things to end, have by Bible study had a very road block night from the Holy Ghost as I was asking how this all worked and the Holy Ghost was not going to answer this, so I had to put in the work and research the meaning of all of this, and conclude, this is nothing I will engage in or have any part of. I'm not about to jump from this satan misery of this world to a Gehenna torment forever to end what I'm going through now. I do not like this hurtful reality I'm always in, but I'm not going to reject God. That is the way this wheel turns in God Promised me my existence here was a prey for me, meaning only I can decide death. satan knows this and tries to get me to murder myself, which I will not do. Of course I'm feeling foolish, the horrid things are still there with the pressures and the satanic HAARP terrorism, but I have the answer to what puzzled me and this is not an option to get out of this world.
I suspect I disappointed God again, but that is me and why these cycles keep cycling. This is impossible, I cling to God after a series of assaults, on an already on edge existence and I'm strengthened to be more callous to the wounds. I have zero appreciation of this and am numb as God receives all the Glory and as long as Jesus Gifts me eternal Life, and I can forget everything about this, that is all I want in this ending, so I can have peace and rest.
I hope something in this helps you, and I hope that your lives are never as hurtful or harmful as my existence.
Nuff Said
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