As another Lame Cherry exclusive in matter anti matter.
I was thinking about my dead brother as I noticed the child of a woman he once dated had died, and it brought back allot of memories to young me as I watched my older sibling be who he was.
See my brother was the golden boy of the family, yes the son who could do no wrong. He hated me as I appeared as a late hatch almost a decade later, as it shattered his little fiefdom.
He was the type of boy who should have had his ass beat every day. He was spanked but it did not any good. He was spoiled and my parents should have given him a swift kick in the ass. Military school would have done wonders to straighten him out.
He had nasty bitchy feminine streak and he treated me badly as he only wanted me around to show off in front of as a 21 year old man needs to out run or out shoot and 11 year old kid, as that proves you really are not the failure you are.
This is about his first girlfriend. He was out of high school, but running around with kids a bit younger than him as he could look cool in front of seniors in high school. So I think this girl was maybe a junior when this started and he was in love with her and disturbingly she looked like a miniature version of the mother. That I do not want to contemplate.
Well the girls dad, looked at my brother and saw a slouch farm kid. The dad worked for the railroad and wanted a future for his daughter, so got a job with the railroad for my brother. Those jobs were impossible to get.
So my brother gets his leather gloves and goes to work in protest. He comes home and does his girl whiner stuff in, "All we did was shovel gravel from one pile to another all day". My thought was, "You are being paid. What the hell do you care what they have you doing."
So he quits. It never occurs to him that this dad pulled strings to get this slouch a job. My brother humiliated him. My brother dissed him by quitting. My brother's actions told this father that he was not going to look after his little girl and go to work.
I'm sure this 17 year old girl heard it all from the dad and soon my brother and her broke up. She was dating someone else, as let's face it, she could read the reality of the message my brother sent after it was pointed out to her.
My brother after chasing around the kid who asked her out, fled to my Aunt's and whined to her, blaming her, the world and whatever. My thought was, "Why in the hell didn't my parents tell this jackass to get back to that job and work it for a month to see how it went as one day is not acceptable".
My parents never did any of that as he was the golden boy and they did this kid no favor.
In turn, the girl started dating someone not the best I think, ended pregnant, married and a kid at age 18.
I later heard she was drinking allot and an alcoholic.
This was all the responsibility for my brother, because he could not be adult enough, or love a woman enough like Jacob loved Rachel and put in the 7 years for her.
So the dominoes fell by my brother. I figure he ruined this girls life by being selfish and shiftless. He never took the blame and I never told him what the reality was and he died before I got to the point of unloading on him a reality check how much of a bastard he was most days.
Now this woman has a dead kid to bury. Does not matter the age, it is always hard to bury your own kid as you do have hope for them.
I'm posting this as we all can see when pointed out there is always more to the Dicken's story than what we think, and in that, each of us is mandated to look at our decisions in the case of self centered people, your version of blaming the world is not the version you will be Judged by, by Christ.
I'm certain my brother got an education when he died as he was bothering me as a white winged dove and I was having none of that Marley's Ghost in my life. Not my responsibility to wipe someone's ass after the toilet bowl is flushed. You fix things when you are alive as their is no fixing when the book is sealed in death.
That is enough of this as dead kid or not, the memories of past sins are remembered.
Nuff Said
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