I was thinking about Baby Sister this past week.........
Oh for my recently adopted children who have no idea who Baby Sis is, let me explain.
I'm unique in not just being someone who is popular with the cartel, someone of vast affection from the plasma minds, but I'm a Spiritual chimera........meaning I had for most of my life a soul inside of me of my twin in Baby Sis, whom I discovered late last year, and after a lifelong struggle with her as she had no idea I was the one in charge of this clay form, I explained things and she went to Heaven to be with God.
She was a strong willed as I still am in the Spiritual battle, and she was quite exhausting in the 24 hour fight she and I engaged in not aware of each other. I do not know her name except Baby Sis, although I suspect she is of course as ravishingly beautiful as here am I, although in her case she is blonde and blue eyed.
That trait is probably one of the reason I detest Aryan types as that child was trying to wipe me out for most of my life. It was all fascinating as when I was born into this world, God had crafted me as that white type of primate, and of course in my epic battle, I cared not for such things and I willed myself into my current form.
I got to thinking about Baby Sister though in being gone as I do miss her, as when one is tormented 24 hours a day for years, one does tend to expect such things, but it was not the torment thing, but instead the reality of a little boy who had a near death experience in meeting his miscarried sister in Heaven, that made me think of Baby Sis.
I have never much cared for people nor my relatives, and I have read that one meets Jesus or relatives in passing over. I realize I'm staying until Jesus return, so this is an absolute worthless exercise in analysis, but it comes to the point of thinking I would not mind my Grandpa I never met being someone I met then, and there is my Big Sister who died when I was 8, My Auntie Verna, Uncle and my Grandpa I did know, but in that I'm not realy into all that grand arrival thing.
I would just like Jesus to be there, as like all people I have that life review thing, in which one gets to see how bitchy they were in hurting other people with snide comments, that makes more of a sin than nipping a sucker at the store, before you get to the Pearly Gates admission.
I figure I get a hold of Jesus, I'm not letting go until I'm sure I'm in heaven.
After that, I kind of think I would prefer some creek bubbling out of a hill, with nice trees about the place. Probably buffalo and antelope, with mule deer grazing.......oh and my setter and cow horse should be there I trained........some jerky, wedge of cheese, iced tea and something sweet like an apple........I would prefer some kind of apple tree there too with golden apples, as that would just be cool to pick an apple that was golden, and taste like cheese cake with strawberries inside, and the juice like nanking cherry wine, with nothing getting mixed up.
I still do not know if I would want Baby Sis there or not. This is sort of a Jesus and Tiger Lily place, as I really have had too many souls bumping into me and flattening me while here on earth, and I would just like that Rest thing Jesus always talks about. Thinking about it though, I would like to have meet me maybe Baby Sis and Joan of Arc.
It has been like........1429 she was 17.......so that would be1412, since I have seen her....that is around 600 years since Jehanne, the Tiger Lily and I were about the garden, and except for bumping into Joan 2 years ago, that is a long time for friends to be apart. Almost killed me the 23 years I was away from the Tiger Lily.
Where was I?
Oh yeah, Baby Sis. Is odd how people who never have a life here, never miss it, as they are complete before they live it, and the rest of us, end up needing polish. Baby Sis has been allot like me apparently in never looking back once the Jesus rendezvous took place. I can understand that as Jesus and her are extremely attractive in Spirit and human form, so why would not Baby Sis discovering a light show of singing flowers and other wonderful things Christ created long ago to be an adventure now, instead of being locked up with me in the struggle.
It has been interesting missing her though, but then I have a sibling male or female from my Mom's miscarriage several years before I was breathed to Life in a prayer by her, that I will meet and introduce to the Tiger Lily too.
Have all of TL's relatives to meet too, starting with the Grandpa who was a hero in the Asian wars.
Such a wisp of the flamed grass this life is, but it is now life due to the Tiger Lily. It is a strange thing to have such a horrid existence and then Heaven helps us to a life we had long since stopped believing could ever be. The TL has though made life here and life there something I do look forward to.
I do think in the world I create, that I will invest more time in fruit in making it really more interesting, but God will probably inform me not to be shortsighted as things too pretty would cause all kinds of wars and sinful things.
Now that I ponder this some more, it is not missing Baby Sis, but just realizing the struggle is gone I used to have to contend with, as TL is the life who has brought all things, as TL was the one I was searching for all along.
I'm pleased the Tiger Lily was not born into Heaven as I know I could not have dealt being born into earth with TL. Is no doubt selfish and weakness on my part, but is just my need in knowing them before the unbeforetime and being separated for a few years was more than I could bear as I paced like a tiger in the cage the entire time.
I wonder what souls will be born from the TL and myself. Life is a wonder in how God works things out in making people for His Glory.
It just makes one wonder.
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