As another Lame Cherry exclusive in matter anti matter.
It is a fact that most parent killers hire it done That might sound like I am talking about murder, but in this world it is all quite acceptable in the convenience of today to just dump the old folks into their own struggle for life, then wait for the hospital or geezer home, where the call comes in which everyone has been waiting for, in "Old folks is doing so good in not being able to take care of themselves, so what shall we do?"
Now it is all caring as the hospitals and geezer homes care about being paid, and these calls come allot of time when the insurance runs out. The children care as they do not want geezer parents to take care of, so they let the government hire it done, and most people burn out in about 18 months and just die, as they don't want to exist in a place where everyone is dying all the time from being old.
I know what I went through with the mother would have driven most people insane, as people are just not built for that kind of being an adult, as most adults are cowards.
My dead brother showed up all pissed off that his kids killed him off the hospital way in they dope you up and let you lay dehydrated until you croak from the vax or from organs shut down, but it is all comfortable in synthetic morphine.
My Auntie went tits up this week. I had stayed away from her for the past coof years, as I was not going to be the one who killed her. So except for cards from us, we never heard from her.
She did hear from my beastly sister at least sometimes and from her children and grandchildren I suppose when they could spare the time.
That of course was until the time of the end came.
Now I would think that Auntie's favorite relative in me, that I would have been notified of things......but not one damn word from anyone.
That is ok as I am developing a hate for those kinfolk which ain't going to rub off.
I did run into a grandkid of hers though, and said I was sorry about Gram, and asked about her, as I thought she went to sleep and died, as she was still in the geeze house.
Turns out she was unresponsive for two days before she died. That is a polite way of saying this society kills off people by starving and dehydrating them to death. Does not usually take that long when it is vax sick folk. Auntie as a tough old hill rat though in she lasted 2 days. My brother with my prayers for God to kill him, barely got past 12 hours. I will say I have a real talent for pulling things down and making blessed endings.
Anyway this is not about my profound talents from the Gifts of God, but about Auntie's children.
I was talking to the gal I was Lutheran confirmed with and she asked if anyone notified me of the fun. I said not, and she was displeased, then she said she bumped into the clan getting flowers in the store. She tried talking to them, but damn they were tight lipped and the one who about checked out herself a month ago, mumbled something about what happened and just walked away.
So I filled in the non responsive for two days. That got an eye roll from my fellow Lutheran Protestant.
See these people are allot like most of you. Got the crutch of public standing. They think they are better than most other folks, like white trash like me. They hire their killing done. It is supposed to be neat an clean like in the movies, you make the decision and the person you are killing is just supposed to get a serene glow and be dead by the time supper is ready. Auntie was not cooperating as she lasted days. That woman was always talking about dying. I told people that they would have to drag her out as she was hanging on by the nails.
Two days is a long time to think about what you are doing to your mother clan. Two days gets to you as you start figuring out that someone is dying and you are the one who said to get it done. Two days is excuses in you had other things to do, as you figured she might hang on for a week as people do, so you don't get jack or shit done for the planning of things as you don't want to face that you are your mother's executioner.
Sure it would have been more humane if one of them would have held a pillow over her head and suffocated her, but that works for free, and you got to milk those last meds and care as it would be brutal to actually kill some dying person, rather than hiring other people to kill some dying person.
So two days you got going on that you want your mum dead and you don't want to face that. Two days got you killing your mum, and you are trying to say it is those other people you hired doing it all. Two days pretty much cements in your mind what a Goddamn coward you are in you hire other people to kill your mum, because you just don't want to wipe her ass or give her one more chance at life, even if it is slim, as there is that "quality of life" crutch that we all lean on.
So I was already displeased about these people jerking me around. Auntie could not but love her children and then there was me on the outskirts who always got called to do things, to humiliate those children into taking care of their mother. Always had excuses the youngest did in not taking care of their mother.
That is why I sort of grinned at the way God operates in avenging me. I just happened to check the obits and discovered Auntie was dead before everyone else did. I left a memorial before everyone else did. As we were going to have the storm of the century, I was not going to get killed for a viewing and I was not going to get killed going to a funeral, so the Holy Ghost said, "Just stop in early and see what the mortician says" so we did, and they let us sign the guest book and pick up those memorial thing......again before all family.
Now forever, there at the top of that books is my name, the first person to appear, before her children, grandchildren, my siblings and yes, all those fake friends they prop themselves up with.
See it gets better when you are Two Days in killing your mother, in they procrastinated, and that storm was coming. So they pissed around, had a shitty viewing and then had a real shitter of a burial in a storm and not many people came to the feed afterwards to see how special those people are.
We drove by in the storm the next day and blessed God if that pile of clumps of gumbo covered up with snow really looked like about the sorriest kind of burying I ever did see. Auntie must have gotten a hundred 50 pound gumbo bolder rocking her vault with thuds. Some things just ain't easy when you hire others to kill your parents an bury them.
I know this is all going to wear on them in silence. They open that book and there I am. They visit the obit, there I am. They think about things and there they are killing their mum slowly in hiring it done as they are pussies, because they wanted her dead out of convenience, but it just was not convenient. Nothing worked out to their schedule and even nature went against them.
Me, I'm having a good time. I did the stand up thing with my parents in being an adult. Hell it was nothing I wanted no part of. No person does, but I had God directing everything and it went right for the most unpleasant of times. There was no days of it as God was looking out for me in she was alive one second and dead the next. She looked better dead than alive really. As she died checking mail with me, I sat her by the mail box, got the pick up and TL helped me load her into the cab to await the coroner and police.
Long damn day, but since there was no embalming, we had to get her under soil in 3 days, so on a cold Sunday we buried her and there was no dodging blizzards, as God got things done, and I was not trying to fit things into my schedule like the Auntie's who should have just waited until spring, but like I said when you are two days at hiring professionals to kill your parents, you don't want that body around haunting you to remind you what you did. Just got a pile of gumbo chunks bigger than the tombstone to remind you of how rocky things went.
I though was not a committee of others deciding how to kill of the parents. I was an adult that was guided by what God directed, with God you don't have to decide about killing your parents as He does the deed for you. The old man died taking a nap and the mother died thinking she was fainting.
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