As another Lame Cherry exclusive in matter anti matter.
For all the bitching I do here and in life, my dental assistant told me as I was being tortured last year, "You are not a complainer". In that case, what the hell good was it going to do, with teeth pulled, teeth jammed out of line, teeth that needed fixing, teeth that it hurt to bite down on, as those were the only teeth I had, and if this is what life was going to be with teeth like that, there was not much except trusting in the Lord to get through that I could do. I do not waste energy or time. I'm quite the 486 logical machine, RI.
I have not had just a rough time of it. My entire life sucks. It has broken me numerous times. I was broke several times last winter in it was one tough bitch of a winter. Lots of problems, lots of dead things, lots of stress and as I type this, am still in it. So when I am grousing about things, it is not because I want attention from the dentist as my soap opera is not on.
God is very kind to me, even in my wounded state, I want to seethe and fury at Him, for this suffering as being a wounded animal, it hurts, it bothers me, and I do not like perpetual torture as I'm normal.
God gives me Words, His Words, and the verses below are like a number of readings the Holy Ghost opens the Bible to me to read. Yes it hurts to believe those Words as deliverance always seems to come at the last moment or too late, but I know God is Faithful, I Hope in Him and I know He will carry me through this, as there is a morning after in all of this, when this is over.
Why would God allow such cruelty and torture? I mean, "Ain't I the Lame Cherry and miracles are performed so I look good and is no this blog the best instrument in the world?" Well St. Paul had his thorn in his side. He had no wife. He was not fulfilled in some things, because those things would have gotten in the way of the work the Lord was conducting. None of us is St. Paul, but we all are in different phases of growth in the Spirit. If you read in the Gospels, you can see how humans are. Jesus was doing all of these spectacular miracles. The disciples all thought they were going to be lords in this powerful Kingdom of God. Now each of us would say, "Yes, we would tow the line and never brush off miracles", but the disciples did exactly that. Jesus doing all these impossible things, and they started not paying attention to it like a circus act. There was nothing special about it to them anymore.
A miracle is only as good as the moment God does it for a person. We are delivered and we forget about it as we have more problems and do not want to remember the hardship. King David though in the Psalms talks about remembering God's miracles in the night and listing them.
For me that is painful, as I'm in pain, and want out of the pain, so remembering past miracles, makes me wonder why I'm not delivered immediately.
There are all sorts of reasons God does things and allows us to suffer. One is refinement. The disciples forgot, and they were with Jesus, and we forget too. I would that most of us were blacksmiths or smelters so we could see that entire process of how metal is refined as that is the example that God gives in the Bible. Thee best steel in the world was Carnegie steel out of America. It involved coal fired at extreme temperatures, high blasts of oxygen and a proper ratio of materials to burn the impurities out.
Each of us thinks we are pretty well founded, but each time we are afflicted, we get upset, and we repeat things, we try to pray our way out, we wait around, and we still suffer. Time plays a factor in this, as sometimes we have to wait longer of things to build up that stamina in Spirit which is the reason we are all here in this incubator called Earth. We are not here to get rich. We are not here to get power. We are not here to indulge. God does not love us more because He gives us more things. In most cases those things are bigger burden to rich people, who trust in that, instead of God.
God is not growing your body or your bank account. God has you here to implant His Spirit into that soul to transform you into a Spirit like God, who will be eternal and part of that eternal Spiritual family. Your body will be gone, and replaced. Gold will be replaced with Glory for the Father. Joy for tears. Love for suffering. Peace for things missing.
In the Prophet Micah, the Holy Ghost Wills to remind me of a reality I must rehearse. I feel pretty low at the moment and downcast with no way out. I will rise though again. All seems hopeless, but I will abide in this dark world with God being a Light unto me, showing me how to think, how to understand this situation and to expect the spring I know is coming.
Suffering is not fun, and in verse 8, I desire you to think of it, not as much as we have sinned against God and are guilty, which we are, but are Redeemed in Christ, but we have flaws or impurities in us yet, that our Loving Father is burning out of us to make us eternally His. We are all like some Fabrege Egg, that is covered in chicken shit. God is cleaning us, inside and out, so the person He sees will be the eternal one we all will see.
When we get our Spiritual Doctoring done by Jesus, then He will bring us out as a more perfect creation of God.
Micah the Prophet
Chapter 7
8Rejoice not against me, O mine enemy: when I fall, I shall arise; when I sit in darkness, the LORD shall be a light unto me.
9I will bear the indignation of the LORD, because I have sinned against him, until he plead my cause, and execute judgment for me: he will bring me forth to the light, and I shall behold his righteousness.
10Then she that is mine enemy shall see it, and shame shall cover her which said unto me, Where is the LORD thy God? mine eyes shall behold her: now shall she be trodden down as the mire of the streets.
None of this is easy. Many are called and few are chosen, because most go back to the things they love in money, perversions, luxury, adoration and whatever people prop themselves up with like satan did in how wonderful they are, and everyone else is the dregs.
If I had not suffered immensely again, due to my condition, this would not be written. I would not have the Holy Ghost generating this assistance for you, which you had no idea you needed, or which will speak to you in what is come or coming. I thank God for His working through me. I detest the suffering as there is too much of that, but there would be something wrong with me if I liked this suffering, but this is God loving me, even if it made me yell out, about God being cruel today as it was another harsh morning. There is no blame in this, for God or for me. I was made this way, so I would be converted, or I would be boasting how I really did not need saving. That is never coming out of my mouth as I want to run from this time, and never ever remember it, as I know in the hurtful lessons how much work God needed to clean me up. That is humble and contrite, and for me that only comes with the harsh lessons, which I regret to get me to the higher frequency.
God has been performing allot of miracles and directions for me in all of this, as He always does. I just am too busy ducking and wincing in pain to be featuring that He has placed another rock to jump to, in the middle of this inferno which only has His Way out.
It is ok to lament, it is ok to be angry, it is ok to whine. Do it with God, but do it respectful, do not blame God, do not be defeated and do not sin. God is your best and only Deliverer in all of this. This is part of your Spiritual delivery from the womb of humanity to the Body of Spirituality. There is God's Purpose in this, in loving you completely.
Each of us will be carried by Christ through this and He will not lose any of us.
Nuff Said
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